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actually the only reason why i'm switching blogs is because ive finally decided tt mycandysunshine sounds too gay. and someone's alr taken seekingsunshine on xanga! :/
thanks for all these years xanga, you've been good to me. maybe i'll come running back to you if i cant get used to onsugar! haha

rmb a few days back when i said i kinda had a testimony to share but was too lazy to? so i shall do it now, since theres nothing else for me to do online and anything is better than studying haha.

-warning! long wordy post ahead-

SO.
it happened on thurs, when i got to know of my quiz results for one of my cores, 18/20. you'd suppose i'd be skipping ard in joy but no, i was actually pretty upset abt it cos abt 2/3 of the class was scoring full marks and i'm in a poly lect grp/class for tt module(okay. srsly no offense to poly students, but i'd think jc kids are supposed to do better for tt quiz cos its kinda like stuff we've alr learnt before(MI), whereas poly is more focused on the hands-on and computing stuff, so they'll do better for those.). so yea, i was really bummed out. and i was alr feeling quite out of myself tt day, to begin with. because of, er. its quite embarrassing so i'm not gonna say it here, ask me personally if you rly wanna know, smt happened on wed which rly made me feel very very down.
so after tt class i was emo-ing, mopping ard the canteen alone when i'm kinda 'supposed' to meet my new friends for lunch cos we happen to have the same lunch break on thurs. initially i thought of just lone-ing in the canteen and emo over my failures. but on the other hand i felt quite bad for not joining my friends for lunch cos my new friends have rly been very nice and warm to me all these while.
so while texting the 2 closet persons(i think its persons, not people) to me, i asked if i should go find my friends or just emo alone. 1 didnt even answer my question, whereas the other replied with a very definite yes. after receiving the latter's msg, suddenly smt inside of me was urging me to just go find my friends. THEN at tt moment, my new friend suddenly texted to tell me where are they going for lunch and asked if i was gonna join them. so off i went!
when i got there, i didnt feel like eating so i just sat there with one of my friends(lets call him 1.95m. hahaha okay no, lets call him K), who was looking after the others' belongings while they got food. so we talked a little and i came to know tt he was going to attend his care group(read: cell grp)'s weekly devotion later with our other friend, D. okay, some background info. theyre both from New Creation Church, so their care grp is actually made up of abt 20+ students in ntu engineering(mind you, its just ntu engineering faculty alone, there are other care grps for nbs, arts, etc. and same goes for the other unis. srsly some churches are just TOO BIG. -.-) so they usually meet up in campus twice a week, every thurs during lunch break for devotion/sharing, and every fri night for cell, or wtv they call it, i cant rmb haha.
so yea. then K surprised me by asking if i'd wanna join them for devotion. i was like, isnt it for your care grp only?? you see, i was shy and wanted to talk my way out of it =P haha. but he says its okay for me to go too. okay anw i'll get to the point. because i didnt have any other plans during tt time, and i didnt wanna lie tt i was busy with an imaginary errand, i couldnt give them a reason for not going to devotion. and even after me pleading tt i'm very shy to go join them, they assured me it'll be fine so i kinda had not choice but to tag alongggggg.
devotion started off with a testimony by the leader, then sharing of the word(also by the leader), and sharing/testimony from anyone. i think its kinda neat how they meet in sch to talk abt God. ^^ i just felt its weird cos not once did we pray in the entire..45mins devotion. :/
so anw. tt day the leader happened to be sharing on gifts. like us finding/using our gifts from God and how theres a gift in everyone, its only up to us to seek God and find it so we can use it to accomplish his intended work for us on earth.
and tt rly spoke to me. because before tt i was rly feeling terribly useless, like theres rly nothing tt i'm actually good at. i'm just a mediocre human being floating ard, not making any contributions to anywhere, not leaving an impression on anyone. and i was just wallowing in self pity at my worthlessness(i even have a text msg in my sent items to prove) before i went for the devotion. and after hearing the sharing, i know tt i just had to snap out of my sadness and move on. and tt God will soon reveal my gift to me, my gift which is from him. smt to make me feel like i'm actually not living for nothing- theres a purpose why i'm here on earth, there are things which i'm supposed to do with my gift, things tt will glorify him and tt my gift will too, lead me to a job in the future tt suits it.
after devotion it dawned on me tt it was fully God's intention for me to attend my friends' devotion in the middle of a school day. tts why he placed -

1) ck who urged me to go find my new friends
2) my nice, warm friend for taking the initiative to text and let me know of their whereabouts so tt i can join them
3) K for his random invitation
4) K+D for their persistence in bringing me along for devotion.

i see God's hand leading me throughout the entire time. oh! and i also got to know someone who rly helped/benefited me -
5) the care grp's leader who's actually a eee senior, and though i've only known her for what, an hr? she sent me a copy of her formal report(in word format!!) which was THE SAME as what i had to hand in for lab this sem! i had been trying to find a senior's copy for some time, but all of my friends didnt have the one i was doing(there are 8 different expts in total for this sem) and the only copy i could get hold on has poor grammer and its in pdf format(ie difficult to copy/paste). so yes, with her formal report i completed mine within 2 hrs! ^^

God works in wondrous ways. (: and if 5 factors arent enough to prove his hand in this, then i dont know how many is.

hmmm. ive actually created a new blog, because ck and i ALWAYS change blogs tgt haha, but the theme is kinda annoying me and i dont think its nice! so i shall not shift over to tumblr just as yet.
so anw.

me likey. SS501 - Love ya.

ive actually got a mini "testimony" kinda thing to share, but i'm rly lazy to type everything out now so..maybe some other time haha.

i am blogging with the mentality tt it is still friday night, and not sat morning..

lab today totally killed me laaaaaaaa. like srsly, i was sooo sian diao during lab. for the first time in my life(no kidding) i couldnt do the experiments. like, wthhh. and its circuit expts! :/ either the instructions werent clear enough or its lacking, or the expt is too complex. i think its both. working with tt puny little.. er, breadboard and weird machines is so confusing. let me google some photos to show you:


this is a breadboard.


this is what you do with a breadboard. those colour things are wires.
HAHA you gotta see this!

omgg, looks like someone just took a whole bunch of wires and threw it on the breadbox. i dont even know if this will actually work? or what is it trying to test for tt matter haha no wonder they say engineers dont have a life..

okay anw mine wasnt so complex, i'm still a newbie. this is gonna pale in comparision to the previous one, but my expt today's was prob just smt like this:

still, its confusing! haha those holes arent like, random holes in styrofoam boxes mind you. behind those holes are actually electrical connections.so we need to poke the connections into the right rows/holes!
oh well.. electrical circuits are rly beginning to scare me. like all the gates and diodes and what not. :/

a glimpse into electrical and electronic enginneering.. looks like someone just drew little ailens' family trees on a paper. hahaha

sigh, i no longer think circuits are fun :/

oh her eyes, her eyes
make the stars look like they're not shining
her hair, her hair
falls perfectly without her trying
she's so beautiful
and i tell her every day

yeah i know, i know
when i compliment her
she wont believe me
and its so, its so sad to think she don't see what i see
but every time she asks me,
do i look okay?
i say

when i see your face
there's not a thing that i would change
cause you're amazing
just the way you are
and when you smile,
the whole world stops and stares for awhile
cause girl you're amazing
just the way you are

her nails, her nails
i could kiss them all day if she'd let me
her laugh, her laugh
she hates but i think its so sexy
she's so beautiful
and i tell her every day

oh you know, you know, you know
i'd never ask you to change
if perfect is what you're searching for
then just stay the same
so don't even bother asking
if you look okay
you know i'll say

when i see your face
there's not a thing that i would change
cause you're amazing
just the way you are
and when you smile,
the whole world stops and stares for awhile
cause girl you're amazing
just the way you are

the way you are
the way you are
girl, you're amazing
just the way you are

when i see your face
there's not a thing that i would change
cause you're amazing
just the way you are
and when you smile,
the whole world stops and stares for awhile
cause girl you're amazing
just the way you are


i just realise(yes i'm lagging, shoot me) tt this song is uber sweeeett. me likey (: and i didnt know its by bruno mars, i kinda reeaally like bruno mars knowww. i think he has a nice voice. hes the reason why i think Billionaire is a nice song, not travie mccoy. ^^
sigh. i have ZERO motivation to catch up on my maths. :/ srsly, i think its hardly math. it should be a new subject, called..alphamath or smt. made up of 70% alphabets and 30% numbers, and 100% confusion. :/
and recently i've been wondering if i'm actually in the right course. kinda late to be thinking of that, i know. but sigh. my mind keeps trying to entertain the thought tt maybe i'll be better off doing mechanical engine. firstly, theres def (much, much) lesser foreigners = less competition. also, my phy1(the paper tts known to be rly tough which many many ppl will have to repeat the module) is kinda the reason why my cgpa isnt as shitty as sem 1's. phy1 is more of mechanics, whereas phy2 is er..quantum, e-field, b-field all. and i did SO MUCH better for phy1 than phy2?!! haha oh well, sighhhh. kinda late for regrets. unless i wanna waste one yr of my life and switch to mechanical. but on the other hand, theres no guarantee tt i'd do well there right? :/